One Last Digress
Okay, I will admit this world has fun making my head spin, which is why I have this tendency to write like there is no tomorrow from time to time. My personal issues, in reality, are nothing in comparison to other issues in this world. They are still my issues, they still affect me greatly, and they still cause me mind games I should not need to think.
I know my situation can easily be so much worst. It isn’t, but this does not mean it can’t become worst than what it is either. That should bother me. When I have to extend my hand to what is not in my control, basically the thoughts and cooperation of other people, this becomes my paranoia, when the thoughts and cooperation is basically absolutely nothing.
I’m not asking for much. One full time job. One woman to be the love of my life. One known means to make sure I am taken care of without the fear or retaliation of some attitude out there who prefers to insult me rather than take any form of time to get to know me.
Move on to community, society, and this nation, all I am observing is all hell just waiting to break loose on way too many levels. It’s getting to the point there is almost not something bound to be wrong on some level with everything on this planet. This is just plain insane.
There is still a whole lot of good in this world. It is so overshadowed by the bad going on, but the goodness is definitely there. I know I have ever yet meet anyone who is only one aspect of life. Every person I ever came across is a multitude of many different inner beauties. People who can bring a lot to the table and have a lot to offer to the right people. For all of this to be neglected, as it seems to be, is just a sin.
I’m reading up on criminal records and expunging a record. I know crime does not pay, but for crying out loud. There is practically no lea way what so ever for those who made a mistake and just want to regain their composure and position into a productive society once more. It doesn’t matter what the record is. Remember, not every criminal will even see a criminal record. Picking on those already caught only allows the true dangerous ones to slip in and out unknown until it is beyond too late. But reality even stretches beyond this.
Everyone is gripping about gas prices. You hear a report on what an oil company makes profit wise in one quarter, mostly a 92 day time span, and all I can think of is where the hell is all that money going back out again? One of their quarters in profits can set up every possible third world country for the rest of their life. It could set this whole country up for the rest of its complete existence. I could not begin to phantom what to do with a couple hundred billion dollars.
I can at best phantom my own personal doings with 80 million. 20 million in my own bank account until I die and pass that along somehow, the other 60 million get broken down into 600 total checks, certified in 100,000 dollar increments and I hand out those to everyone who was ever good and meaningful to me. I’m even daring to make it 800 and just stick it to greed all together. I’m sure that alone would boost this economy.
I just hate greed. It’s grown ridiculous, it is nothing but insulting, and let’s face it; it is now murdering this planet we have no choice but to live on. What good is your greed when you end up in your grave? All I want is to know my earned living covers everything. I don’t think this should come from 100 different income sources. Two to five would be sufficient but those ways also need to work period. The extremely high level of scam and scandal is also beyond absurd.
How hard does it have to be to allow someone to earn their living and then let their living work hard for them? Must be frickin’ impossible to the self absorbed and the greedy who refuse to care beyond themselves. Let’s tack on brain washing, paranoia and fear, using everything under the sun, moon and stars as an excuse to make guilt trips; I am amaze this world still lives from time to time.
I really don’t care if I am somehow the only man left in existence that has to think this way, but here it goes. I have no need to destroy any one else’s life. No matter whom they are, who they think they are, what they do, or any other factor as far as that goes. I find this completely pointless and disturbing. I will not live up to any stereotypes that exist out there (to the best of my own ability). Granted I am already a victim somehow to what that means, but for what is in my control, I choose to not be something someone else has in their head they think I should be doing. If you know who I am and you are one of these people, just deal with it and move on. I choose to be a good person. I choose to be supportive and willing to take on issues that I do observe. I choose to battle the evils that are plaguing everyone, even if you don’t realize that is what’s going on. I have no problem admitting I have my imperfections, nor that I am capable of doing it all. Sure I can train myself to be so self sufficient, but this still requires other people providing that cooperative edge so I can be ahead in life. I’ve made my mistake; I’ve learned from it and grew in very big leaps and bounds from it. Now let me live my life in peace and earn what is mine to be earning. I no longer tolerate hate on any level. I no longer tolerate abuse on any level either. From the actual crimes of molestation, rape, etc., to the continual badgering of individuals already caught and just want to escape and heal from the hells they already went through.
I should revive my blog on criminals in this country. The different types and what to expect. I do believe that probably 50% of all sex offense in this country is a pile of garbage. The other 50% is just that die hard inexcusable crime that sadly happens with the sociopaths and the inexcusable. IT IS the garbage aspect I am going after to end. Stopping the nonsense where a woman is yes until half way through then says no and is just purposely destroy a man in such misguidance. Where those 16 or 17 seeing their lovers who are maybe 18 or 19 destroyed from all third party members outside of the two involved in the relationship. Any kid or teenager out there who does have a sex drive and is being oppressed to ever understanding what that means, thus becoming criminals themselves. The lying going on. The using and excuse making, creating social discomfort, putting people in god awful positions, the unnecessary rapes going on, anything that I can sit there and tell right off the bad, you don’t even believe the very thing you are saying. That is what I hope to stop and end.
Heck, I don’t know anyone saying they want to be a raping murdering sociopath when they grow up. I’m also after those who refuse to make sure thinking errors are stopped dead in their tracks before they begin. Care to explain to a protective innocent child when they go from being the protective innocent to everything toss their way of a venomous serpent verbal onslaught of a tongue? It doesn’t matter if we are dealing with unbalance families, mental disorders, normal people, overhyped egos, power struggles, politics, religion, sexual preference, whatever the case may be; we are allowing of all things, a negative opinion destroy humanity as a whole.
I refuse to believe this world is a world of sick freaks, just calling each other the same. I refuse to live in some self absorb bubble of a life I think can never be popped. I will not be closed minded to anyone just because they are different than me, physically, mentally, emotionally, ethnically, or any other reason that there is. I will not coward behind any vocabulary term there is just to play some game, not ever created by me, just to stay ahead or keep ahead in life. I’m not so sure why we are all equal flesh and blood cannot be comprehended, no matter what the life choices are and what errors we make and learn from, the absurdness in this world has to start stopping as a whole.
I’m not allowed to live the life I choose to live out of speculation of fear? May as well claim terrorist to win the war. I’ll do my part to keep on the straight and narrow. You do your own part. Just think of always doing right and allowing people to prove their good deeds as our civil duty to our own country. Not every war even deals with guns or nations.
For being a country where United We Stand, we do sure find many ways to divide ourselves up now don’t we? If I cannot have what should be my own to decide to control, then I never really had freedom to begin with. If that many people are being deprive their rights and privileges to find their life, liberty, and pursuit of happiness, then this country was never free or independent to begin with. And this is one statement I definitely don’t want to be making.
So let’s stop attacking still, the only actual resource on this planet, the human race itself. Grow, thrive, be good, and go just a tad bit out of your way for once in a while. You may be surprise how many problems will disappear for a few seconds of your courteous time.
I recognize evil. I would absolutely suck at being evil, even if you had me play one on television. I just lose my tolerance for it once in a while. Things to do to keep the goodness alive. Keep in touch with all who matter to you. Even to just say hello. Communicate your feelings and fears. There is no known ESP power out there. Cannot read minds unless you speak up to say what is on your mind. Give people the time of day they need on their level. We are a society of individuals. Allow those individuals to live and prove themselves, and do what it necessary if they screw that up doing something bad and let them climb up that ladder once more. Don’t forget your manners. Don’t be insulting other people just because you don’t comprehend their own life. Just because something is there or it exist, does not mean it has to apply to your own life. Don’t wrong other people. Stop attacking traditions, history, or other points of view because of some dislike factor. Stop taking offense to things that should not be serious, and take more offense to things that are very serious and life destructive.
I would never wish true evil upon anyone; I just guarantee you have yet begun to understand what that could be. And once you do, it’s probably already beyond too late. How about stopping these thoughts before going there to begin with?
The best way to end sex offense is to stop being such an attitude towards human sexuality to begin with. It will apply to you. You must own up to in somehow in some way. Just because one method works for you, does not mean it works for this whole entire world. So how about helping each other stop all these levels of absurdness going on. Everything is situational. For those who know they’ve done wrong, you will have what is coming to you. I may not know the status of the karma train, but it does roll.
Thank you for reading my digress. Assuming you did read it all. I know this blog is long, but these are the things that plague me constantly. I also know I am very far from alone in these thoughts. Self control, self ownership, respect for yourself and others, any problem that exist will dissipate. It takes time, elbow grease, and even a few bumps and bruises along the way, but these problems will dissipate.
Be good, be strong and be safe. Keep fighting the good fight for whatever than means to you. Live long and prosper as well. Peace be to all.
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